Sick of crying, tired of trying, yes I'm smiling but inside I'm dying. I hide all my problems behind my smile. Behind my smile is a world of pain. You think you know me, but you have no idea. 

 

Nothing is worse than putting your trust in someone, and them letting you down. I hate it when you realize that someone means more to you than you do to them and when someone you used to talk to every day doesn't care about you anymore. But maybe one day you will realize how much I care. I'm not mad at you, I just want you to care... And maybe one day everything will be okay.

 

I'm just trying to look out for myself now. Trying to not get attached to certain people because it might hurt me in the future. Sure life's about taking risks but there's also a point in life where you get tired of getting hurt. Tired of trying. Just tired of everything.

 

But I'm gonna keep on smiling like nothing's wrong, pretend that everything's all right, act like it's all perfect, even though inside it really hurts...

 

Now I'm going to sleep, I love sleep. You forget about pain, problems, stress, everything for a while.